Returning to the Past – 50th Part
After having sacrificed on the altar, the life that I was living before full of anguish and heaviness became light and pleasant.
Everything became more special. When I went to meetings… well, things began to be more joyful.
When we sacrifice, it also teaches us to look upon ourselves. It made me realized that in the church my faith had been dormant. That bold, transparent Viviane now had been canceled out due to the losses, which only made me look at my pain.
The fact is, when you only look to your pain and do not exercise your faith which is obedience, the strength that once was part of you becomes hidden behind the feelings that are reigning inside of you. That is what my feelings did to me when I insisted on the right to choose things my way.
When I gave up this right it became easier to notice the signs that were acting in my life and were obscuring my eyes.
That is when I noticed that in the church I had no more words of faith to pass on, I had nothing to give. I remember that I was afraid to counsel and give advise to the few members that existed in that little church. I only took down the information of the people who were there for the first time to have contact with them, but nothing more.
After my surrender that day, I began to see clearly that my priority at that moment was in my spiritual life, which was cold.
When God shows you something, He only says one word, but that word can be directed to so many areas … Soon after, I began to exercise my faith. It was no longer a burden to do so because sacrifice brings strength and ideas to renew what is around you.
The church began to grow. Members of the youth group wanted a greater commitment with God, and disciples were formed, mostly men.
There were more Pastors and the work of the Church began to exist! We opened special services that became Churches. We even rented a larger place for the headquarters, and that is when a new phase began for me.
I began to have ideas that challenged me. I no longer felt that insecurity I constantly felt when I was living with my pain.
I started working with young girls. I held a little meeting with them. I began to give myself to the church and to the people in a way that I had not done in a long time.
I had this strength that only came through the power of sacrifice!
To sacrifice is to surrender;
To sacrifice is to let go of what ever is weighing you down;
Sacrifice makes you discover the kingdom in which you must live in here on earth.