Returning to the Past – 68th Part
After a few months, Fernanda Bezerra went on a new mission: Namibia, and that meant that someone would have to take her place in the Women’s program. What did Fernanda do in the program?
She was the head presenter. She was the one who developed the subjects. Now, this responsibility was given to me.
The program was aired on Rede Record International and also came out in Brazil.
What a big responsibility! Well … God gives these types of challenges to those who do not think they are capable.
I felt incapable for several reasons, first with the Portuguese language itself. Although it was my native language, I left Brazil when I was 11 years old, and returned when I was 15 and stayed until I was 17 years old, after that I was sent to several countries, with several other languages.
I had just come from Spain and there I had to really study and practice speaking Spanish and because they are so similar I would get them confused.
And since I lived there for a long time, I ended up mixing Portuguese with Spanish.
Public speaking is not easy, especially when you see other people doing it better than you. But no one else accepted this challenge, and my sister said to me, “Vi, if you do not accept this challenge, you will throw away the opportunity to help many afflicted souls.” I remember it as if it were today… This made an impact in my life. I would either assume my faith or not. That was the situation I saw myself in.
There, I made a decision! I decided to take over the program and I would rely on God to help me with this.
That same day, I spoke to God: “I honestly do not know how this will be because my Portuguese is “contaminated” with Spanish. Lord, You will have to teach me how to speak. ” I said this in tears in heavy tears.
Deep down inside of me, there was something very certain: I wanted to honor God. I did not want to portray a negative image of a false God, because of my weaknesses. I wanted to show a God that does all!
I began my journey with this program through my faith.
There, we had to develop themes, talk about them without using church language or terms, because the program was not on a time when we could speak of God.
So, with my limitations, I took an important step in my life: “I will prioritize my moment with the Lord on the Altar and He will give me the condition.” This is how it happened! I woke up very early every day, even before Julio got up, and went to the Altar. There I cried out to God and meditated on His Word.
And even though I was fighting with God on one hand, on the other I continued to have problems with this new challenge. In the next post, I will tell you more about it.